माझ्या जुन्या घरी

माझ्या जुन्या घरी जाऊन आले मी आज...


आता तिथे कुणी नवीन लोक राहतात... पण हा सगळ्या जगाचा गैरसमज आहे.... :)

कारण मी गेले तेव्हा ज्या दारात , पायऱ्यांवर बसून मी आणि माझी बहिण भातुकली , "बाई -बाई " खेळायचो त्या दाराने खुणावलं मला ...

'किती दिवसांनी येतेस...मला वाटलं ह्या घराशिवाय कशी राहशील...आज ४ महिन्याने आलीस...ये .. '

माझी कुठलीही मैत्रीण तिच्या घरी जायला निघाली की ह्याच दारात मी उभी राहून तासनतास निरोप देत राहायचे...

नकळत हसायला आलं...आईची हाक सुद्धा ऐकू आली.. 'अगं कितीवेळ दारात गप्पा मारताय ...आत या..' :)

मग गेले आत...

सवयीच्या ठिकाणी ना आमचा पलंग होता , ना चप्पल stand ,ना घरी येताच स्वयंपाक घरातून बाहेर डोकावणारी आई ... ( आणि कुणी ओरडलं सुद्धा नाही ... चप्पल आत टाक )

पण माझी खिडकी होती तशीच.. :) तिच्या समोर ऐटीत डोलणारी कडूनिंबाची फांदी.. बागेत अवाच्यासवा वाढलेला कडीपत्ता ... तशीच मंद झुळूक , तशीच हवीहवीशी सकाळ...

पुढच्या एक मिनिटात मी अनेक वर्ष मागे गेले... कधी ह्याच खिडकीत परीक्षेची शेवटची उजळणी...कधी बाबा ओरडले तर बाहेर बघत रडणं...कधी गाणी ऐकत एकटक बाहेर बघणं ...कधी धो धो कोसळणारा पाउस... आणि पावसाच्या दुसर्या दिवशी अधिकच सुंदर दिसणारी अर्धी भिजलेली झाडं... :)

त्याच खिडकीत बसून दूर चालत येणारे बाबा ...आणि 'बाबा' अशी जोरात हाक मारत कोण आधी पोचतंय अशी शर्यत लावणाऱ्या आम्ही दोघी बहिणी ...जाणाऱ्या पाहुण्यांना 'टाटा' करायची हीच खिडकी..आणि कोण आलय हे बघायची सुद्धा तीच...

स्वयंपाक घरातून आईच्या हातच्या साध्या भाज्यांचे , आमटीचे वास येऊ लागले... :) तेव्हा का बरं हट्ट करायचो आम्ही...पाव भाजी हवी , पिझ्झा हवा...दाबेली हवी...??  तिथेच कडेला दिसली आमची कामवाली ताई ... दीदी म्हणायचो आम्ही तिला... आणि खरच तशीच होती , प्रत्येक दिवशी आमची तेवढीच काळजी...तेवढंच प्रेम... नोकर-मालक हे नातं कधी जमलंच नाही आम्हाला ...आईनं तिचे खूप लाड केले आणि तिने आमचे ... आज तिच्या जागी ती नव्हती आणि आईच्या जागी आई... ह्या खोलीला मी स्वयंपाकघर कस बरं म्हणू... :)



आणि मग आमच्या इवल्याश्या घरातला एक कोपरा ...आमची  तिसरी खोली....बेडरूम ...ती आमच्या सगळ्यांची होती...आई बाबांची...आमच्या दोघींची...अभ्यासाची...पाहुण्यांची...computer ची.. नव्या जुन्या कपड्यांची...पुस्तकांची...मोठ्ठ्या महालात सुद्धा मावणार नाही इतका सुख , समृद्धी आणि चांगुलपणा भरलेली...

कुणाचा राग आलं , काही वाईट झाला की इथेच रडत बसायचे मी एकटी आत... आयुष्यातल्या बर्याच जाणीवा इथेच झाल्या...कळत्या वयात आणि आधीसुद्धा ... आजारी असल की इथेच झोपायचं...घरी कुणी आलं असेल तर अभ्यास इथेच... नवीन कपडे घालून आरश्यासमोर इथेच तयार व्हायचं ...इथले खूप फोटो कुठे असतील आता ? माधुरी दिक्षित , आगरकर , शाहरुख , तेंडूलकर अश्या सगळ्या फोटोंचा पण एक काळ होता... झोपता झोपता त्या फोटोकडे बघत स्वप्नात 'Interview ' देणं... :)



५ मिनिटामध्ये बाहेर पडले...पण कोण जाणे किती वर्ष पुन्हा जगली...बऱ्या-वाईट , हसर्या , दुखर्या अश्या किती गोष्टी आणि वर्ष त्या ५ मिनिटामध्ये आठवली ... दारापाशी आले आणि ठरवून टाकलं...नकोच पुन्हा यायला ...किती दुखतं इथे...!



चार पावलं चालले ...आणि अंगणात आले... ओळखीची माती ..झाडं , पटांगण , टेकडी आणि शहरीकरणाचा लवलेशही नसलेलं माझ्या घराला सामावून घेणारं fergusson चा आवार (कॅम्पस )... एका झाडामागून लहानपणीची मीच मला भेटले... तर मी गप्पं... ७-८ वर्षाची ती मुलगी मनसोक्त हुंदडत होती... हळूच लपत होती..."ishtopp ' ... असा आवाज झाला आणि हिरमुसली... निरागसपणे जाऊन राज्य घेतलं आणि शोधू लागली...



"धप्पा" .... वयानी धप्पा दिला .... माझे डोळे ढगाळले आणि पाय काही हलेना ... "येणार मी परत ... सरळ साधं जगायला आणि निरागसपणे आऊट व्हायला इथे येणार...माझ्या 'जुन्या' घरी..."

नवीन लोकं इथे राहतात असा जगाचा गैरसमज आहे...खरंच ... काळाच्या गर्दीत हरवून जाणाऱ्या माझ्या निरागसते सारख्या अनेक गोष्टी अजूनही राहतात तिथे... :)

हरवलेली नाती ...

आठवणींच्या जगात पाय ठेवला आणि ह्यावेळी भेटली ती काही नाती ...

हरवून गेलेली ...

कुणाच्या ह्या जगातून जाण्यामुळे काळाच्या ओघात हरवलेली...

तर काही गैरसमजामध्ये गुरफटून मला चिडवणारी ...

काही जुन्या गावची... काही जुन्या घरची ....

काही जुळून येण्याआधी निसटून गेलेली .....

काही मी तोडून टाकलेली , आणि काही समोरून नाहीशी झालेली ....

काही सुखावणारी , काही दुखावणारी ...

पण दुखावणारी असली तरी हवीहवीशी ... हसरी दुःखं जशी ...

काही क्षणात जमलेली , आणि काही वर्षानुवर्ष असूनही विरून गेलेली ...

काही आता फक्त आठवणीतच भेटतील अशी ...

आणि काही धूळ झटकून नव्यानी फुलवता येतील अशी ...

 

काय करावं बरं ? हव्याहव्याश्या हसऱ्या दुख्खांना तसा धुळीतच पडून दयावं ... की नव्या उमेदीने त्यांना आपलंसं करावं ?

हळुवार ,  नाजूक नाती तर कायम मनाला आनंद देतीलच ...

पण मनात टोचत राहणाऱ्या ह्या नात्यांचा काय करावं बरं....?

 

इतकी वर्ष उलटून गेली , मी त्यांना तसंच ठेवून दिला ...गुंता वाढवला...

आता तोः सोडवणं , त्याला नाव देणं कठीण झालंय. ...

एकदा वाटलं , जाऊदेत , कुठे आता पुन्हा .... ती कटकट , ते रुसणं , ती मनधरणी

पण मग दिसली काही नाती ... ज्यांनी मला आयुष्य भरभरून जगायला शिकवलं ...

ज्यांनी आला दिवस हसून जगायची युक्ती शिकवली ...

ज्यांनी निरपेक्ष प्रेम करून तसंच करायला शिकवलं.....

 

माणूस आहे ... चूक होणारच की... समोरच्याची असो किंवा माझी ...

काळाच्या ओघात प्रसंग पुसट झाले ...

राहिला तोः अहंकार ...

 

झटकून टाकायला हवा...  शोधायला हवं मी , हरवलेल्या नात्यांना ...

एकदा का हा अहंकार गळून पडला की  कदाचित ही नाती प्रत्यक्षात उतरतील ,

आठवणींचं जग सोडून वर्तमानात येतील ....

आणि नाहीच आली ... तर ...

मी प्रयत्न केल्याचं समाधान कुणी कसं बरं हिरावून घेईल माझ्यापासून... :-)

Desi Girl :-)

A friend forwarded an article written by Chetan Bhagat ... The article was basically about stress levels of Indian women and related analysis. But that pretty much triggered  to write this...

So all these years there is a question that haunts me , amuses me , pauses me and what not ! What does it take to be "Ideal" or "Sensible" or rather "Acceptable" woman in my country ... ?
I love putting my thoughts through the a few imaginary (?!!) conversations and I will do the same this time! Would love to read the comments and views by rational men and women !! :)

One.

(First year of job , One day m back home by 730pm)("Aai" is in "Mother")
Me: Hush , I am tired!

Aai: Il make you some tea (mom is back home generally by 630)

Me : han , will love it...

(Aai gets me tea)

Me: I am so hungry...

Aai : come help me , you make some rotis and I will do the rest..

Me : Rotis...no m tired .. I will make daal and rice... please

Aai : What will you do once you get married ? This is not acceptable . I was 21 when I was pregnant with you. You know I too worked . Look at you. Once you are married how will you manage ? I am really worried.

Me : Mom I know all this...This might be the 16785th time ..

Aai : This is not a joke. You need to seriously manage this now. Education , job and related things is fine but as a woman you need to look after family , house and other things too.(Then comes her fav dialogue) . You were best outgoing student of your college , but thats in past. You should be best incoming family member in a new family . Thats important for rest of your life.

Me : Aai , What is your definition of or criteria to be a good wife !

Aai : You should be able to balance.

Me : Balance means ?

Aai : You will have to be good at work but at the same time cook for your family , keep your house clean , look after every member of family , be active and helpful in family functions and events and (She continued )

Me : But Aai , So where are my hobbies in picture ?

Aai : Hobbies will be there in ur free time (Where is the free time ???)

ME : hmm , I dont agree somehow ... The kind of jobs about 20 years back were different from what we do is what I feel. Aai , Did you feel a constant competition around ? Did you worry every day what will keep me in the job ?

Aai : So our jobs were not really important ; is it...

Me : No dont even get there , I am just talking about changing times ... M just trying to tell you that its not the same now a days. You need to understand..

Aai : I will understand. But what after marriage ? See its my duty to tell you what matters in different phases of life , rest is upto you...
(Mom leaves and gets back to cooking. And I am back to square one :-) )

Two.

( At a mall)

A : Hey how ru ? Long time , your baby is it ? whats his name ?

B : Aalok. How ru ?

A : Nice name , M good , same old job , same old routine. How abt you. Last time we spoke you were pregnant , you started working again ?

B : No re... I want to be home till he starts going to school.

A : Thats really creditable.

B : Ya , We dont want our child to suffer and leave him at day care. I cant even think how people can do that.

A : Ya , depends , its a personal choice isnt it ?

B : I dont think so , All career minded females do that , then why produce babies man!

A : (Thinking what to say as A has spent significant time of her life at day care around 20 years back) Well , Id say personal choice.

B : Hmm , looks like you want to follow the same path.

A : I will cross the bridge only when I am there..Whats the point discussing it beforehand. I think if you have a good support system acceptable to you and your spouse you can choose it. I am not sure as only experience will create a few thoughts about it. Neways how do you like it being a full time mom ?

B : Its a great feeling. Well , Sometimes I am lost . I feel everyone is working and I am behind everyone. But you know its a phase . In the end your child is most important.

A : For sure ! And it def matters a lot ! But hey , why r u not in touch with anyone ?

B : I dont get time ya , Raising a child is fulltime job. It needs constant attention.

A : How old is he?

B : He is 2.5

A : Aah wow , But you should still keep in touch with the world you know. May be a mail or two in a month or so. Wont be difficult ya!

B : Lets talk about it when you have a baby. Its easy to say all this. I dont get time for anything !

A : Yea , sure. Chal I will catch you soon .

B : See you.

Three

(In office a married male team member and married female team member talk to each other.)

M : So what do you have today for lunch ?

F : umm , today my cook dint turn up and I had a meeting at 8 .. So couple of sandwitches...

M : Oh so what did your husband do ?

F : Oh he is also fine with it . Ek din chalta hai... (One day its fine)

M : No way , I cant survive on s/ws , I told my wife that I need a proper lunch , cant do with s/ws...

F : I think its fine to adjust for a day or so.. does your wife work..

M : No way , I dint want a working girl at all...

F : What so wrong with them ? I mean I am a working girl

M : Ya but I wanted family life ( Means what !!)

F : But do you mean we dont have a family life ?

M : No , may be ur husband is okay. But I always wanted a wife who will cook for me , will be home and take care of everything ..

F : Ya , its great to have a partner who likes it that way. I always wanted to work and wanted a husband who will understand that...Specially after a professional course..

M : Meri wife bhi toh Engineer hai aur woh bhi achche college se (My wife is also an engineer and from a good college) But I told her when I met for the first time I want a housewife , working wife is not acceptable.

F : Ya its better if one has clear preferences.

M : I really appreciate your husband . How can he survive w/o food.

F : ( I am eating food and so will my husband) I really appreciate your wife who can cook for no matter what happens to her...

And the list of incidences go on....

I always feel that working / not working , cooking / not cooking and related things are individual choice.

1 .One can be very happy looking after family , cooking and not working. Its rational and valid . But does that mean the one who works loves her family less ? Are children not important to her ?
2. Why are a few words like "Gharelu" , "Careerwali" , "modern" are conveniently used to categorize females ?

3. Till about 21 , girls and boys go thru the same routine of education , competition and activities. Then why one fine day a girl is suddenly expected to perform all the duties !!

4. Yes. Females produce and males dont ! :-) No one goes against the nature's laws ! Leave the "Stree Mukti" group out of this ! I personally feel no one needs any "Mukti" club when basics are clear! There are a few things that are meant for guys and girls cant do it and Vice-versa. Yes ! We do understand these facts !

5. No , no female in the world can excel in every aspect of life. She needs understanding men (mind you , not just husband) around her to let her be!
6. There is no rule which says , Men should not cook or share household work. And those who do are not hen-pecked ! They are rational !

I can go on...

But all I wanted to say is don't judge and define an ideal woman ! It doesn't exist. It all depends on the family that she comes from and she gets into ! I do not mean to say that we women are all perfect. But most of us try and spend a lot of time to be one !

We want our husbands to feel happy about the fact that he has a wife who loves him and earns just like him ! Happily cooks for him but sometimes has no energy to even make tea! Is happy baby sitting but expects you to understand that you need look after her "career-break" insecurities ! Wants to be a good mother , good wife but expects a considerable respect at work ! and so on ! :)

To conclude , do not define and discuss "ideal woman" , Just respect and love "your woman" :-)

Dont touch it Beta , Its India , everything is dirty!

And so I was standing and waiting for my turn at the immigration @ Mumbai Airport. Thinking about the rain , trees , "marathi" conversations etc etc ....... (significant if you are flying from a desert to India :P)

Familiar faces in the line as all of us were in the same flight for last 3 hours...Behind me was a mother of two really really cute kids... They were playing around , observing the queue and one of them touched the steel stand and the belt used to separate the lines...The very Indian mom shouts ,

"Beta , Do not touch anything here , This is India , Everything is dirty ,  you will fall sick if you touch this..."

Pulls  out a tissue (Not even wet) and rubs on his hand !

For the next few minutes I was thinking , hating her and wanting to remind her of a few things... Counter No. 14 , the officer requested and I had to rush...

I do not want to sound biased but every place has its positive and negatives for sure. But if a mother (greatest share of upbringing) teaches such things to a kid I am speechless.

I am just glad I had upbringing where loving your country , respecting it (no matter wherever works takes you) , using / knowing / applying your own mother tongue was not downmarket ! I can go on and list a thousand good things against ten bad things about my country. But I will not do that . Because respect and affection is something that should come naturally , one can not force it on to anyone.

Wish I had the power to kick out such people then and there out of the "Dirty" India. I guess even this exercise would improve a lot of things in my country !!!

Sayalee

PDW , Guess What !

        There is a lot said/written/proven about time management... I am not writing this to prove any point but I just want to raise few questions and not directly , Just want to list few experiences/conversations...

So to start with ,

1.
Conversation between two ladies in a mumbai local.
A : Do you know what Apeksha is upto ?
B : Last I know is she changed her job....
A : Oh I thought you must in touch with her... after all you were together since school...
B : Absolutely , best buddies...But you know how it is once you get married...
A : Oh sure,
B : And Apeksha isnt married as of now..she keeps sending messages , but I ve hardly any time to reply man!
A : Forwards is it ?
B : No on mobile , just to say hi hello...But everytime  I decide I will reply once M free and then forget abt it...
A : Oh I see...
(To reply to a message does not take more than few seconds , even if you reply to 5 SMS s perday it wont take more than 120 seconds , just 2 minutes.. Few seconds to say hi to an old friend , is that expensive ??)

2.
A : Do you have a facebook account?
B : Ya , had created it long back...
A : Oh kool , let me add you , atleast I can see your pics or visit your profile to see what u upto !
B : Ya But I hardly login , I dont know how people get time to check FB...
A : I think its a personal choice... I am happy to see latest pics of my relatives , friends , their new cars, houses , relocations...makes me feel connected , makes a lot of sense as long as  I am not addicted ...
B : Makes no sense to me, why update ur location and photos , who cares...
(Its perfectly alright to be socially inactive and keep to yourself but avoid double standards by demeaning people who are fond of it!!! There is nothing wrong or right , and being on FB or not being on FB is in NOWAY related to how "Busy " one is... )


3.
 It is a trend to feel that your are performing well when you are most busy at office/business . I beg to differ... ! "Being Busy" , "I dont have time for anything but work" has nothing to do with how well you perform! It is very obvious to feel if a person is calling you a few times , "God , looks like he / she has no work" !! Why deny , I have thought on these lines if someone close is trying to reach me ... We all need to realize , if someone is trying reach us , means , that person is able to take out time from his routine for you and manage his relations well, unlike you ! :P

4.
It is not downmarket to initiate conversations :))

I can go on and write thousands of such conversations...

But in this fast paced lifestyle , we all really need to sit , relax and think for a few  minutes ,
So many people , compromises , incidences, moments  have gone into making you , what you are today... ! I was busy all my life only to realize that it did not enrich me a bit... is not what I personally want when I am 60 and I look back ! I d rather be rich in terms of my love , relations and positivity , After all money wont buy me either of it !
Ok now  , I agree this is turning totally philosophical but it is all about choices and preferences... Its a safe way to end this I guess ;-)

By the way , title just meant , Public Display of Work :P

A Past-full Smile :-)

        It is when I left my comfort zone and moved to another country to start a new life I realize and cherish every relationship that I thought I had left behind :-) No , I have not left anything , It exists and now I am aware ...

        I do not know whether this happens to everyone who leaves a comfort zone and moves into a new life but it certainly happened to me. Many things , many people and many places still mean a lot to me like they meant a few months back ! Few refer to it as "nostalgia" but I refuse ... 

        Frequent contacts on my phone list are now "in touch on emails" , I keep thinking how the hell did that happen! My car , the road which I took , place where I had chay , favorite table in office cafeteria , smile of a colleague in office that made my day is now thing of past. Nothing new actually , happens to everyone , just everyone ! "Give it some time , you will be comfortable" , I hear... 

        Well no ! I do not want to give anytime to forget it :-) I will be comfortable only if I do not forget it...Each and every relationship with things that breath and with things which do not breath is not a thing of past. Deep in my actions and my memories I would love to refer to them. I would love to know what they are upto. I would love to revisit them few times( in absence and in presence ) While I attach myself to thousand new things and enjoy them fullest I would remember things which added happiness to me and my surroundings sometime back...

        No it does not matter to anyone what I do with my relationships with people and things :-) But give sometime to remember things which made your day complete a few days back or a few years back ... Do not feel bad about the "H2O" that naturally rolls down ;-) It is fine :-)

        Here is to every memory , every attempt to memorize that memory And to every mail to the loved ones or a call of few seconds that brings sunshine And to your visits in your dreams to your favorite hang-outs and to everything that brings a meaningful , bright and "past-full" smile to your life :-) 

Cheers!

Inspired!!!

Here is a small post I just had to pen down... :-)

       Was  watching another talk-show (in  marathi : that is my mother tongue) ...  Mr.Vithal Kamat was being interviewed. Now normally talk-shows are about people from the glamor world so I was really wondering what is the discussion about!

        Let me not get into each and every question that was popped !! But I would just like to mention couple  questions that were asked and the "Very Inspiring" answers which made me think  and act !!!


Question : Sir , We have heard that you don't travel by business class and still go for economy , is that true ?

Answer : Yes , Many banks have invested in the hotels that I am coming up with... I m big because they have trusted me ...I can not use their money for a luxurious lifestyle.

(Fact : It was just not about traveling by business class but this man traveled by train and then took a riksha when Orchid : 5 * hotel was coming up!!!)


Question : Sir , you have traveled all over the world for your business ( Please search for Orchid hotels / Ecotels ) , Is there something that you think should change ?

Answer : Nice question .. I have been really looking out for a good opportunity to say this... Today I will... We Indians always keep complaining that  we are not treated "normally" or respected by citizens of few countries... But let me tell you the fact that what we really need is treat ourselves normally !
Value yourself if you think others should value you ! The only thing that will make you feel inferior is your confidence which is not up-to the mark !

Well ,  I don't need to explain what he meant  ! Many will get the point and at-least few will follow ! :-)

Sayalee

Laau Later ;)

Got a forward which was a love-letter from a school going boy to a girl in his class ... I tried to reply , posting both !

Image : Original "Forward" :P

Text : My Reply

My Reply

हाय किरण ,

लव्ह लेटर वाचून मला असं वाटलं की जणू काही मला गणितात शंभर मार्क मिळाले ... तू काल जेव्हा सायकल वरून माझा पाठलाग करत होतास तेव्हा मी खूप घाबरले होते ... पण तू हे पत्र मला ओंकारेश्वरच्या पुलावर दिलेस , मी लहानपणापासून त्या देवळात जाते ...



पत्र वाचून मी लाल रिबीन टाकून दिली , आईने सायकल मध्ये हवा भरायला जो रुपया दिला होता त्यातून निळी रिबीन घेतली आहे ... आणि आई म्हणते , " रंगापेक्षा गुण महत्वाचे " , माझा नेहेमी पहिलाच नंबर येतो ... असो !



मला घरी सगळे सूनु म्हणतात ... लाडाने , असो !



मी तुला हे पत्र देईन की नाही माहित नाही , पण तुझं नाव मी सरांना सांगणार नाही ह्यातून तू काय ते समजून घे ...



बाकी उद्या तू शाळेत लौकर येऊन माझ्या शेजारच्या बाकावर बसावस अशी प्रार्थना मी ओम्कारेश्वाराला केलीच आहे..



सुनीता उर्फ सूनु ...

PoemAfterAges...

मनाच्या आत, खोल खोल जात
उमजेना, गवसेना... !
मनाच्या आत, दिशाहीन वाहत,
दिसेना अन कळेना


भिर भिर तळमळ
आणि एक अपरिचीत उत्तर
नको नकोसं, हव हवसं
हळू हळू अन भरभर


एक वेडं हसू, एक शहाणा आसू
अर्थ त्याचा कळेना
माझे स्वतःचे होते जे जे
हिशोब काही जुळेना !

Mumbai Local - One Afternoon

1 : wer did u get this bag from...looks branded

2 : No ya , linking road...guess kar na!

1: 300 ? 200 ? 150 ???!!

2 : 110!!!

1: Super..Next time you go...get one more for me ya!!!


3: (On Mobile) : Kay sangtes? vatlach hota mala kaal...kal jina chadhtana bhadnana aikalich hoti meee...Joshyanchya sunene rang dakhavale akher... tula kasa kalala ? Kay sangtes! tu bai agauch ahes, yein na , ho , sandhayakali...ganpatichya devlabaherach bhetuya..better nahi ka...dev darshan pan hoil ani mug mast gappa maru! Joshi puran...bar chal , station ala vatata...bhetuch


4 : kayku nahi chadhi tu kal ? tereko bahut masti hai hamesha late chadhneki..

5 : Aammi tu chilla mat , mereko bali chahiye wo..

4: abhi muh band rakh , teriko har roj kuch na kuch mangta.. abhi ghus chal andar...baith udhar

5: meriko nahi baithne ka...idhar hava main khadi rehti main..

4: mar fir ...main ja rahi


5 : (On Mobile) : Pata nahi Aunty , main kabhi nahi travel kiya hai...Abhi ek station gara...ghatkopar...aur kitna dur hai sion...Oh...nahi main left main khadi hun...Ghatkopar left main tha aur right main bhi tha...Oh achcha platform...left main tha shayad...nahi aunty...Sion kahan aayega...han poochti hun...Rikshaw kahan milega...oh thik hai...aur ek station aa gaya...vikroli...utaru ? kyu ? oo...ulta gayee...han aati hun...byee


6: lo na didi ...5 ko ek , 10 to teen...le lo boni kar do..nahi paravdata didi...mere ko 50 paisa bhi nahi milta hai...chalo chodo...

7: aaj 8:42 late hoti

8: ho na....vaat lagali tyamule...nako te loka yetat mug hya local madhe...

7: first class cha pass kadhun ithe chadhava lagala...Useless pana

8: very true ga...divasbharaacha mood jato


9 : hey...aaj itne din ke baad train main , congrats re...shaadi ho gayee teri!!

10 : are han...break liya beech main.. aur abhi mera ghar do station aage aaya...chadhne ko takleef hai yaar...

9 : sach main... husband kaise jate hai ?

10: isi train main hai yaar peeche...fir unka office toh VT main hai na..

9: fir shaam ko

10 : main jaldi jaati hun re...unko late hota hai..khana banana hota hai na...

9 : family ke saath rehti hai kya

10: nahi re..bus hum dono hai..lekin unko ghar ka khana pasand hai...chal fir kabhi , inka phone hai...

Myth , Facts and "Social" Work...!? !...

I met my school friend the other day! Here is what we shared...

(I met her in a very posh area in Mumbai , she got down from her car , asked her driver to park it , i struggled to find some space to park my car on my own! :) )

Me : Hey , i cant blve its u! U have changed so much ! You ve put on a bit (m a girl , don't blame me for this!! )...

She : Ya ! sup with u ?

Me : M working with "XYZ" as... (She dint allow me to say a word after that !)

She : Oh...another IT girl...! So amazing perks , hifi office and all ! Do u think u belong to this society ?

Me : (M meeting her after 8 years , i don't what to say! ) Dint get u!

She : Nothing yaar! Leave it! U wont understand...

Me : Okay , ssup with u ? wat u doing these days...

She : I got married and i stay in Juhu ! I am doing social work !

Me : Oh that's amazing ... working for any NGO ?

She : No ya ... i mean not directly , but i participate in "Burn a candle for blast victims" and similar events....

Me : Oh okay...really nice (I dint mean this at all! what do u get out of burning a candle for blast victims!! )

She : Ya , even you can participate , Neways i don't think you IT guys do anything for society...

Me : Umm (Do i tell her we do better things than burning a candle or do i keep my mouth shut!!) Ya...you have a point (With my political correctness)

She : I know ! You guys earn so much and dunno where to spend...

Me : (A very disgusted smile. )

She : Neways il catch u later , we have meeting about decorating a wall for people in dharavi ...
(She calls her driver and leaves for her meeting)

Me : Yeah , take care and keep up ur good work ....

There are two points i want the readers to note and think ,

1. There are two things about IT . Myths and Facts .

2. People like me who contribute rarely to this society need to revisit the fact that we own a lot to this society AND People who are actively involved in "STUPID" and "GLAMOROUS" social work need a reality check!

Life did it to me...

I have this sick habit of thinking 24*7 about something or the other ! Most of the times it is about if something , someone or myself were right or wrong ... Or maybe about i could have reacted in a better way , or sometimes consoling myself with "its OK , this is not end of life" ...And yes how can i forget the dreams ! Yes they also are part of this 24*7 thought process!

Now i know everybody thinks , maybe not 24*7 but everybody does ! When i look back i realize few days , months or years back i never thot so much ! or maybe i thot after i did \ said something . Somehow everything i say , do , react is planned recently. I not only think about what i have to say but i m ready with possible set of replies too ! :)

Sometime back i dint know how to act political and now i am an expert ! Earlier friendship just happened , now i am so damn careful about it! I loved eating junk food and now every now and then i am damn conscious about it! Earlier i thought there has to be a "happy ending" and now i start thinking with "what will i do if i fail or if this doesn't work ?" ! Small things no more bother me , but accident news about a stranger in newspaper make me cry ! I think someday i will own an "AUDI" but i think sooo much while taking a Rik for long distance!I hate someone in office but i still smile at him\her whenever i see him\her... I somehow do not trust an old frnd and go on sharing my feelings with newest frnd! Even when i am in a very important meeting i keep thinking about when will i sleep today ! :P I know few things are part of my duties but i still avoid doing them just coz i think and decide it doesn't make difference ! I have soo many things and incidences to share but i think this much is sufficient to convey the "confusion" or "thot process' whatever u choose!

Worst thing is after all this i feel now i am all the more mature :) Now it is not that funny ! I know things like "take it as it comes" , "live the moment" , "Do not regret" and other "gyan" too! :) But somehow i find it easy to use al this when i am supporting loved ones... But when it comes to me this "thought process" bothers me...! God what happened!
Thinking too much sometimes dominates natural instincts is what i feel !But i still love that domination ! I have no reason for that ; actually for many things ! Not that i was not aware that its changing ... I was completely aware..

Some may think its "artificial" , some may think "so what if u think 24*7" . I do not have answer to why did that happen , How is it helping ! and but i am pretty sure this happens to many of us in our respective lives! I am not sure about the purpose of this blog , lemme confess it here ! But i am loving this terrific graph of my thinking process and just felt like sharing it ! I don't know if u call it "madness" , "maturity" , "nirvana" or whatever ! But yes , Life did it to me! :)